Summer Holidays Part I

The 411

Summer is here and all is right with the world. Lets all party til the sun goes down. Errrrrmmmm.. I think this is what I'm mean to be thnking but actually I'm worrying about exam grades did I pass, by how much, is that enough to get the placement I want. On top of that my friends are still at Uni til the end of the weekend and my parents haven't decided where we are going on holiday to in two weeks time yet. Arrrrgggggh

Holiday

TWO WEEKS. My parents have usually had this booked for atleast 3 months by now but no. This year they have left it too the last minute. I think its there old age, they probably just forgot. To be honest I don't care if we go or not. I just wanna have a week off to read the Harry Potter book, I know SAD. But they will just get more and more stressed out and that will stress me out. God, they always tell me not to leave stuff to the last minute. I wish they could just make there mind up on at least what country they wanna go to.

Friends

Miss X, is coming back this Sunday and she has invited me to the Download festival, ONLY £150. I get to share a tent with her and her brother. I know I shouldn't I'll probably end up saying how I still love her even tho she still probably doesn't love me back. But how can I not go she said she'd rather I go, and I'd rather be her friend than nothing at all. I can't beleive its been so long since we've seen each other, but one text saying she's got a spare ticket and all the feelings come flooding back. People say that they're in love and some of them I beleive but sometime I think of X and all I can think is how can they know what love is, this is love, it hurts.

Love is soo surreal, I was friends with her for two weeks thought of her as another normal friend. We got real close real soon and all I thought was I had got a really good close friend. The she started dating another guy. It hit me, she was a girl and she understood me , I understood her, we talked relaxedly for a couple of hours at a time. Also I didn't like the bloke and that made me realise how much I cared about her, but I couldn't tell her then when she just got into a relationship.

Then they broke up, I couldn't tell her then they had just broke up. Then she got together with someone else, and so on. Eventually about Jan 2006 I told her then she freaked out. Never been the same since. I lost best friendship rights. But I'm not sure whether I want to get near her again it might just hurt more. After we "broke apart", she dated my best male friend, which I didn't mind as he was a great bloke, But I heard from someone else. That hurt.

Love Hurts.